29.2.12

New Year's resolutions.

This post is about New Year’s resolutions, a topic which is still timely on Feb. 29. I don’t want to brag, but this is my blog, and as always, I am right on top of things. And if you think about it, being on top of things eliminates any need for New Year’s resolutions.

Laptop
To bring us up to date, after tearful phone calls, ordering of parts, tech visits (more tears), Laptop finally was repaired, out of pity, or to make me shut up. It was an expensive miracle.

After Spillmageddon, I am not drinking coffee with Laptop. Like a pack-a-day smoker who quits smoking cold-turkey, breaking a twenty-year habit isn't easy. One day at a time.

Cups with Lids
Before you comment or email, yes, I've heard about cups with lids. They are a wonderful invention. But I am accident-prone, and I KNOW I could spill coffee from a cup with a lid. It's a gift. My new rule is no coffee (or other liquids) by Laptop. A New Year’s resolution that I can keep.

Productivity
Unfortunately, not-drinking coffee with Laptop has had a negative impact on my productivity. Or so I want to believe. Because once or twice a week, things have interrupted me from my current task, which is finding paid work.

Things. Landlord is panicking about me moving out (one day). So, handymen are popping in. Six had a fever and missed two days of school. I needed to buy new tyres for the car. Taxes. You know, the things that fill regular life.

I thought my problem was general laziness, but realise another issue is low-level, debilitating anxiety. I worry a lot.

Time
I have expanses of time, but as previously mentioned, there are too many interruptions.

Drugs
Considering taking something (?) for my anxiety, but taking drugs to feel normal is no fun. So, my New Year’s resolution is to run more, while Six is at school and at his dad’s. Exercise as therapy.

Oversharing
I also resolved to blog more often in 2012. But New Year’s resolutions really do set us up to fail.

Leap Year
This year is of course a Leap Year. I recently learned that in a Leap Year, women can propose marriage to men. This is silly. Obviously, women can propose marriage anytime. Also this has nothing to do with me, since I'm not looking to get married again anytime soon.

Dating
Last year I was maybe interested in dating a couple guys. But they didn't feel a mutual attraction to me. And as someone smarter than me once said, unrequited love is a bore. Dating still seems like a sadomasochistic exercise.

8 comments:

Katie L. said...

Wish I was there or you were here. We could have exercise-based therapy sessions. This would allow both of us to kill several New Year's resolutions birds with one stone. Too bad we can't translate our worrying into money--we'd be able to buy tyres any time we wanted to. xoxo

Suzy said...

Unrequited love is a bore. Been there.

Juli said...

Mutual attraction is as rare as paid jobs. And I really can't lower the bar much further.

snozma said...

Good resolutions! Especially that running. The sanity is amazing. Try yoga if you want absurd sanity. Yoga plus running can do crazy things to a person in terms of calmness. And I'm NUTS AS HELL as you well know.

The rest are great. It cracks me up how realistic and grounded you are. My resolutions are always so impossible and I never do them.

Hm, I'm not buying that last one. But these are good resolutions.

Dating seems super sucky until it isn't. So maybe just leave your options open?

Juli said...

I love yoga, and I RESOLVE to get back to it. One day soon.

All resolutions are impossible. It is their nature.

I am a control freak, which is why I may appear OK (to some) on the outside. Believe me, it is chaos within. Very messy in my head.

injaynesworld said...

Dating is the worst. You'll end up with two children again, instead of one. So many men are just so damn needy. These are great resolutions. Smart to try to avoid the drugs. Running sounds good. Dancing, even better. So how about zoomba?

And lots and lots of faith in yourself! Hugs.

Juli Ryan said...

Everyone is raving about zoomba. Zumba? Whatever, I'm gonna try it. One of these days.

Happy Frog and I said...

I totally understand about crippling anxiety. Changing my diet and walking for at least half an hour everyday has really helped me.